I changed my private story name.
Let’s talk about it. “two words: power & play.” To me whenever I change my private story name on snapchat it kind of marks a milestone, because I always name it after things that have meaning to me - so as silly as it sounds, I changed my private story name. I don’t know what it is but recently I keep revisiting this idea of power and also how it’s used - hence the play. I believe anything that happens to me is strategic so therefore anything I do also has to be strategic. I obviously referenced that they are two words because I just love the Kanye song; I literally reference it at any given opportunity but as much as they are two words they are also two very prevalent words within society, especially when put together. In “pride, no not the publicised type” I had spoken about this opportunity and the corruptness of the system/hierarchy (I make it sound much more political than it actually is). So let me update you guys. I went for the position - a late entrance and all because I was contemplating on whether I wanted to save myself from embarrassment - and I didn’t get it. I wasn’t considered, didn’t even make it on the team. Rejection from a team that doesn’t even deserve you is crazy to me. So from my perspective I was definitely hurt and disappointed in myself to say the least because making it was the least of my expectations. Nonetheless I had to try and move forward and not display my emotion because I have to remember they never deserved me in the first place. From this experience I’ve definitely learnt that at least for that position, I’d never do that again. There is another opportunity to make it on the team but I’d rather avoid disappointment twice or even a late admission - I’ve realised I’d prefer not to have the responsibility anyways because I don’t want to answer to that terrible authority system. I’ll take my two words and run with them because power & play both showcase the importance of strategy and aside from when it comes to writing I am most definitely the planning type. In general though I will try to keep putting myself forward for things/opportunities just to kind of push me out of my comfort zone, and learn not to get disheartened from rejection or anything that doesn’t go my way. To be honest a knock down only makes me desire to be better to showcase my worthiness - no matter the fact that it’s always been there. Diary of an overachiever - Miriam.
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