Before you read, I just want to start by saying there’s a deeper message in this blog and it’s not to fall on deaf ears, but read as you please. I’ve really actually noticed that people are just weird. Recently someone made it seem like they tried to resurrect a friendship with me. Now by now you guys should know that I hold grudges, so there was no way this was going lightly but also, the Christian in me says that i should forgive and so i entered the conversation hostile, yet open-minded. There wasn’t much of an exchange if I’m honest, but that spoke volumes to me about their character and my judgement than anything else. It’s okay to expect the least from people because sometimes, that’s really all they’re capable of. To me it said “weird” in black and white because you never really tried to resolve anything, sounded more like an attempt to show the world that I can be vulnerable and accepting in an embarrassing manner. But I already radiate that, so how did it affect me?
I put in my Instagram thought bubble that “I’m fighting a couple niggas’ demons because of soul ties” and I stand to believe this isn’t fair because they’re not dealing with them. I think that at certain stages in life we’re all meant to face hardships, but all that unnecessary or excess suffering comes from stuff like that; you weren’t destined to be in that state but because of that tie you have to deal with that alongside someone else. I know personally that these lot are not dealing with their demons, people busy themselves with other things so often to avoid looking within and fixing within. It’s not fair to me that I have to feel attached to you yet you can’t see any type of attachment to me because you’re too busy LOCATING your demons, yet they’re standing right in front of me though? And even if I fight off your demons, that doesn’t solve your problem, it will forever be the person's issue until they resolve it. Like in the past 5 months there has been countless things that I cannot even begin to explain going through, yet I did. And lord knows how I got through it, fuck it how I’m still getting through it but I am. But you see, to still have the attempt to keep my energy pure and respect people as much as I can and others won’t do that for me? It’s so difficult. So why are you being so selfish? Why do you have the time to make soul ties but not cater to them? I’ve never even realised how deeply this actually goes but now I am realising that all my sole moments of reflection and suffering are due to things like this. Moving forward, avoiding this is definitely going to be number one on my agenda because my energy is so sacred, and I hate feeling like I’m just giving out good and not receiving anything back. As in when I say that ties are real? Wow - It’s like I can’t stop showcasing my disbelief for how deep-rooted it is within reality. I never believed in it truly, I just thought that spending time with people will obviously result in an attachment and leave some hurt when they distance, but it’s not JUST that. It is so much more. The visions and things you see in your dreams, the random flashbacks of scarring experiences are all coming to you to open your eyes about a current occurrence, just join the dots. And if you’re battling my demons, I’m sorry but at least I try. Actually what brought me to this grave realisation was watching Qoy & IAMDDB, the way DDB talks about transfers of energies is so pure and so fragile. It honestly puts into perspective how everyone should view their energies, as it affects our livelihoods. A moment of personal reflection - Miriam
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eun
16/6/2023 11:25:16 pm
I just happened to stumble over this, I do actually know you as we go to the same school, but more relevantly the bigger picture of what said makes alot of sense, the way society is structured today means that alot of human interactions and 'soul ties' are very half-hearted and not very well thought out. I see the conclusive results on those who I actually try to get close to, they don't want to be inclusive in fear of it not being reciprocated and being taken advantage of, and the backlashes from arguments which set precedents to those people trying to reform themselves despite the hurt they have already caused. In any case, I understood this really well.
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